help me get out of my ultra religious household or i’ll be sent to somalia against my will

archiveofaoncehuman:

archiveofaoncehuman:

pencilbutt:

i really dont even know how to start this post, i know how horrible this situation sounds and i know it sounds super made up and out there but i’ll do my best to tell it

i’ve known that i was exmuslim since i was a kid, i never understood what i was learning. i didnt feel connected to it at all. but since i was being raised and an EXTRMELY religious Muslim household i couldn’t voice my thoughts at all. especially because im a woman both my parents have made it obvious since i was growing up that being an apostate was the biggest sin there could be. i wasn’t even fully aware that people other than me could BE exmuslim until i found the exmuslim reddit page. I was so scared of my parents finding out since i knew that if i was kicked out i wouldn’t be able to make it on my own at all, so i put up with all the religious classes i kept my sexuality (bisexual) to myself since its virtually a death sentence. If they ever caught up with how i actually felt they would send me to somalia. It’s such a common thing where i live- even in middle school parents would take their girls to somalia since they were afraid of them being “corrupted” by western ideals and it made me sick. it makes me even more sick to think that most people who hear what i have to say will totally dismiss it as fictional because they dont believe how hard life is for exmuslim girls- especially exmuslim SOMALI girls because what were are is so unacceptable we could quite literally be KILLED for it 

im so sorry this is so hard to read and understand but the point of me writing all this is to say that my parents are getting progressively worse and worse. they got me a passport recently and keep hinting towards taking  a “vacation” to somalia. I’m not stupid and i know i need to leave before this stupid trip happens. I know for a fact they’re doing this because i got into a college far away from where i currently live and they were so unhappy they let their thought of taking me to somalia and forcing me to stay slip. 

i want to move. I have to move but i have no savings since i’m not allowed to leave the house alone, i’m not allowed to work i cant be indepentadat at all since they need to have 100% control over my life. im sick of living a double life i’m tired of the disconnect between my personality online and how i act around people IRL because im scared they’ll expose my true feelings to my family

so if you can even spare a dollar https://ko-fi.com/penbutt please donate or if you cant RT i need to get out

( NOTE: this ko-fi and this tumblr were 100% made for this purpose, this is an online friends paypal account as well since if you google my full name my father comes up online…  i do have a main tumblr account which i’ll happily tell people in PRIVATE but i will not post in public. IRL friends follow me and I cannot risk it i’m sorry.) 

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